8th Death Anniversary


八年前,死亡第一次在我眼前真实地发生。

当时,你已病入膏肓有整整一个星期站不起来了。在兽医院时,你突然使劲了力量站起来看了我一眼后,就吐血到卧不起。

兽医给你进行急救,我却只能无助地站到一旁默默的为你祈祷。这一幕就像美国连续剧ER的情节。不同的是,发生在我眼前的事是真实的而并非虚构的。

遗憾的是,经过一番抢救,你仍然是回魂乏术。

兽医取除了口罩对我说:“I'm sorry, he's gone…”

我崩溃了。你只有7岁。

我一直都忘不了你最后看我的眼神。让我好心疼,好不舍…

之后好一阵子,我都不愿提起你。看到人家的狗儿更是伤感。但现在,我已经完全释然。

我们都有过“失去”的经历 - 失去宠物,失去一段感情,甚至是亲人。

总有一些人和事,过去了就是过去了,再也不会回来,而我们会以怎样的心情想起他们?伤感?悲痛?愤怒?还是难以释怀?

或者,我们可以以另一种方式来记起他们,带着微笑,怀着感恩。

感谢他们曾走进我们的生活,丰富了我们的人生。

谢谢你,Dexter。

The Battle:
Jul 25 2005 Health going downhill
Jul 27 2005 Initial diagnosis
Jul 28 2005 The first night away from home
Jul 29 2005 Come home please
Jul 30 2005 Discharged!
Jul 31 2005 Recuperating at home
Aug 06 2005 The follow up
Aug 18 2005 A turn for the worst
Aug 19 2005 Back to the vet
Aug 23 2005 Stubborn boy refuses to take his medication
Aug 28 2005 An update on Dexter's recovery
Sept 07 2005 Second opinion with Dr Heng
Oct 02 2005 Spending time together
Oct 26 2005 Birthday eve
Oct 27 2005 A turn for the worst
Oct 28 2005 Hospitalized again
Oct 28 2005 The visit
Oct 29 2005 Discharged
Oct 31 2005 The first steps in weeks

Acceptance and Closure:
Nov 02 2005 Farewell, my dear friend
Nov 03 2005 Thanks for the consolences
Nov 06 2005 A little thought means so much
Nov 07 2005 "Dexter where?"
Nov 09 2005 The seventh day
Nov 12 2005 Home again
Nov 13 2005 The scare
Nov 17 2005 Are you there?
Nov 26 2005 A special gift
Mar 31 2007 In dreams he came to me
Jul 21 2007 I misses you
Mar 23 2008 What do you do with a bored 5 year old on a boring Sunday afternoon
Mar 31 2008 Oh noooooo!
Apr 02 2008 Operation saving Dexter

Remembrance:
1st Death Anniversary
2nd Death Anniversary
3rd Death Anniversary
4th Death Anniversary
5th Death Anniversary
6th Death Anniversary
7th Death Anniversary


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